I have spent A LOT of time in the kitchen lately. A LOT! So much so that yesterday when the boys were enjoying their afternoon snack, Emron commented that I “sure do like makin’ stuff.” I told him I did. What I don’t like about the whole creative process is the mess that it makes. And I am not one of those clean kitchen cookers. I am messy and loud. My family complains about the noise I make, and I complain about my dry hands from doing so many dishes. To be fair, Murry helps with the dishes when he is home, and that is super nice! Look, here’s a messy day and that doesn’t even compare with what I can going a few days ago:
See, messy! Are you a messy cook? Or do you clean as you go? I’m curious.
Next topic for today: Being a mom. It’s challenging sometimes, huh? Today we attended Emron’s Fairytale Theater. His kindergarten class has been practicing their play for a few weeks; mum was the word as they kept exactly what they were doing at school secret. There were songs and dancing and several fairy tale skits. Emron was co-narrator. I knew he was nervous as soon as I walked in the classroom. I could tell just by looking at him, but then as they began I watched him take a great big breath and it was all I could do to keep it together! I wanted to take his nerves away even though I was confident in his ability to preform and I felt a bit helpless sitting in the audience.
The play ended up being quite entertaining and everyone did a really good job!
Driving home I thought on my close to tears moment. If I had cried it wouldn’t have been because I was happy. It would have had more do to with the thought of losing the baby that I once had. But, then, growing up is life. I shouldn’t feel sadness over that; and so there’s the rub. As a mom I want my kid to grow up and do great things, but at the same time it’s hard to think of my baby being on his own and not needing me.
I know this might not resonate with some of you, but it’s my blog and my thoughts, so there! Nonetheless, I hope it’s a great day and that you don’t have any close to tears moments today AND that your kitchen gets messy, because that means you are using it!